My ACIM Story

To Whom It May Concern*:
I am writing this email hoping that it finds…well…whoever it needs to find.  I felt, for some odd reason, the need to share my story as to what A Course In Miracles has done for me.
Years ago (20 years ago) a friend recommended the book You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Hay.  She quotes The Course in her book, “You who desire peace can find it only by complete forgiveness”.  I figured I would research this mysterious book and give it a shot.  I found the book hiding in a very cluttered bookstore in Salem, Massachusetts in 1990.  I began to read it but never fully understood it.  To me, it was just a series of words jumbled together.  It may as well have been in cuneiform.  Nonetheless, through ‘strange coincidences’, I kept meeting people who had read The Course.  The oddest encounter was on a subway platform in Boston where an artist designed quotes from The Course in calligraphy on paper.  Still…I didn’t understand any of it.  I simply could not comprehend the words. 
After many trials in my life, around the same time, I went to a fairly well renowned Native American Seer in Salem.  She told me to focus on what I wanted to know about.  I just kept thinking on how I wanted peace in my life.  She then told me that the answer to what I was thinking was in a “Black book with gold lettering”.  I thought of The Course but ruled it out because the one I had was blue with gold lettering.  So, dismayed, I pushed on in life.
Many (and I do mean many) trials later, only a month ago in fact, I stumbled across the documentary The Story of A Course In Miracles.  I watched it intently.  I was floored when it spoke of Helen Schucman’s dream or vision of a “black book with gold lettering”.  Then I looked on and saw the new Original Edition.  Mind you, during these past twenty years, I repeatedly picked up, and subsequently put down, The Course whereas, again, it consistently made no sense to me whatsoever.  I met people who met Marianne Williamson personally, I met people whose lives were saved by The Course, all through the oddest of ‘coincidences’.  Still…I could not relate to this Spirit of Peace.
I purchased the Original Edition, following through with the prophesy of this seer.  Well…my eyes were opened.  It finally made sense.  I do not know how on earth this additional material was omitted, but it never should have been.  Then, whether it be through human intuition or Divine Inspiration, I had the following insight and wanted to share.
This Kenneth Wapnick was and is completely ego driven (in the every-day use of the word ‘ego’, as in prideful and selfish).  He never should have had his hand in the editing process.  I will not buy his books nor listen to a word he has to say.  I know The Course does not advocate a devil, per say, but there are clearly forces working against The Course that would see the message distorted.  I know that his word manipulation was a disservice to me, and cost me 20 years of understanding.  Nonetheless, all happens for a reason.  Yet, Kenneth Wapnick is the “unhealed healer” The Course speaks of.
That having been said, now that I actually understand what I am reading, and am obtaining peace from it, I will continuously purchase copies of the Original Edition and give them out as gifts to thus spread the message of The Course.  Further, I dedicate myself to making certain people know which copy of The Course they are reading.  One is correct.  The other is not.  Simple as that.

Well…I don’t even know if anyone will ever read this email, but…that’s my experience and opinion.
Kind Regards,
Eric F.

* Course in Miracles Society [CIMS] wants to mention that the A Course in Miracles as edited by Ken Wapnick and Helen Schucman has brought much Peace to many, many people. In fact, some people prefer the Wapnick Foundation for Inner Peace version over the original edition. We are not ones to ever say what form a message will need to take to be helpful. We are grateful for any and all versions of A Course in Miracles. We thank Eric for his comments and wish him well on his journey without distance.





[as it appeared in the October 2010 Newsletter]




 [Purple text is from the Course in Miracles]



A Course In Miracles (reference pages)

Chapter 15 – Section – THE TIME OF CHRIST

1 Sparkly Book – p.371  /  JCIM –  p.155   /  CIMS – p. 312

Chapter 15 – Section – THE TIME OF REBIRTH

First Edition  –  p. 301   /   Second Edition – p. 324


It IS in your power, in TIME, to delay the perfect union of the Father and the Son. For in this world, the attraction of guilt DOES stand between them.1 

Which means it stands between you and your Father . . . 

. . . the attraction of guilt . . .   

Of course, you don’t like to think about yourself being guilty, but you don’t mind thinking about your fellowman as being guilty and making him pay for his guilt, or getting even for him with it because of his guilt, or neglecting to forfeit and abandon the expression of anger that your brother so clearly deserves.

It IS in your power, in TIME, . . 

. . . not eternity, but . . .  

in TIME,  to delay the perfect union of the Father and the Son. For in this world, the attraction of guilt DOES stand between them. 

It keeps all of you pre-occupied.  Now, . .

Neither time nor season means anything in eternity. But here, it is the Holy Spirit’s function to use them both, though not as the ego uses them. 

In other words, the Holy Spirit can use those things which find no real place in eternity to help you Wake up.  And so, the Holy Spirit uses time and the Holy Spirit uses seasons, and the Holy Spirit uses seasonings to make delicious food many times to cause you to have an enlightening experience or an occasion for an “Ah-ha” to occur.  The Holy Spirit can turn anything in your experience to your advantage whether those things have any place in the eternal scheme of things or not.  And the Holy Spirit does. 

Now  we could say, continuing:  

 This is [almost] the season . . . 

. . . but the actual words are:  

This is the season when you would celebrate my birth into the world.

At the time that I was dictating this to Helen, it was that season, which was the reason for discussing the fact that the Holy Spirit can use time and season, you see?  So . . .   

This is the season when you would celebrate my birth into the world.  Yet you know not how to do it. 

Be willing to live with that statement.   

Yet you know not how to do it. 

Learning to use the holy instant is part of how to do it, as you’ll find out.

Let the Holy Spirit teach you, . . 

. . . how to do it. 

Let the Holy Spirit teach you, and let me celebrate YOUR birth through Him.  The only gift I can accept of you is the gift I GAVE to you. Release ME as I will YOUR release. The time of Christ we celebrate TOGETHER, for it has no meaning if we are apart.  

This is very literal.   

The time of Christ we celebrate TOGETHER, for it has no meaning if we are apart.  

If you see me as having been born two thousand years ago and having lived for thirty-three years and then left, no longer available to walk with you and chat with you as I did with my disciples, and you gather around Christmas trees and in churches and sing Christmas carols and praises of God relative to my coming and my leaving, all without a sense of my actual presence that you would have if we were walking and chatting together, then it has no meaning because we are apart.  And everything you’re doing is in remembrance of an event you’ve heard about but not an actual experience you’ve had.   

The time of Christ we celebrate TOGETHER, for it has no meaning if we are apart.  

Wow . . . so that’s why you know not how to do it, because you’re doing it without being with me.  You’re doing it without taking the steps that allow for the joining to occur.  You’re doing it without abandoning your orphanhood and the very firm beliefs you have about being alone and on your own and probably not the effect of an eternal God at all. 

The holy instant is truly the time of Christ. 

Not two thousand years ago.  The time . . . 

The holy instant is truly the time of Christ. For in this liberating instant no guilt is laid upon the Son of God, and his unlimited power is thus restored to him. 

Very key point.  Guilt takes your unlimited power away from you.  Guilt obscures it from you.  Guilt causes you to believe with fervor and commitment, nothing but weakness.  But  in the holy instant . . .  

. . . no guilt is laid upon the Son of God, and his unlimited power is thus restored to him. 

That is how you celebrate the season, truly causing the season to actually have Meaning because it gives entrance into the world to the Christ . . . to me through you, thus illuminating the Christ of you in the world.  That means everything “in the world” has changed. 

What other gift . . . 

. . . than unlimited power . . .

. . . can you offer me, when only this I will to offer YOU? 

You see?  That was my reason for being present.  That is still my reason for being with you.  I will for you to know who you Are.  Because I know it’s impossible for you not to know who you Are.  It is impossible for you to actually have forgotten.  It is impossible for you to actually be insane.  And I’m here to speak to you, to talk to you, to be with you, to chat with you in this fashion and we’ll say, within your own mind, so that you know you’re not alone.  And that because of Who is speaking to you, you may realize that you’re worthy of being spoken to by Him and in that realization it can begin to dawn upon you that you are truly my Brothers or Sisters, that we both have the same  Inheritance.  We both have the same Birthright.   

Now I’m going to back up a moment because the fact is that you all know you need miracles.  You all know that there are circumstances in your lives that deserve to be changed for the better no matter what seems to have brought the situations into existence.  You see.  No matter what causes  there seem to have been, they cannot legitimately obscure the Presence of God Being everything there.  And they cannot have any power to cause God to be invisible and lose His Presence-impossible.

If you want to see transformation, then you’ve got to be willing to be in the instant with different goals, with different motives than the ones you normally have.  And when you abandon yourself into the holy instant, having left the past behind, and therefore carrying forward no grievances and abandoning any thoughts of the future and fear that might be associated with it, you are in a place of innocence and you are in a place where you have absolutely no control.  And when you allow yourself to be there humbly and with faith that there is a God, and you wish to know of God what the truth is or you wish of God for Him to reveal to you the truth,  and you bring no force into it, just watch your experience transform.  Just watch what you couldn’t possibly have brought into existence or what you couldn’t possibly have caused to happen, happen or appear. 

But again, I have to ask, “What will it take?  What is needed in order for you to engage in the holy instant?” 

What other gift can you offer me, when only this I will to offer YOU? And to see me is to see me in everyone, and offer everyone the gift you offer me. 

Oh boy . . . 

And to see me is to see me in everyone, . .   

So, you’re in a line in the grocery store and somebody behind you has gotten pissed off with you-says you’re taking too long or with so many groceries why didn’t you get in another line or whatever-and is making a fool of himself and a scene and embarrassing you . . . Oh-h boy . . .  

And to see me is to see me in everyone, . . 

. . . everyone right at that instant!  What is it going to take for you to be willing to enter into the holy instant when you’re embarrassed, you know?  What is it going to take to cause you to abandon your embarrassment, to disregard how you think the event is making you look to everyone else?  That seems very important, doesn’t it. That seems more important than your sanity or a miracle, right?  If you’re not careful, it does . . . and it sucks you right in and you make commitment to that.   

And so the question is, “What will it take for you to enter into the holy instant, to avail yourself of the holy instant in which God’s laws prevail and not the bad behavior of some fellow, and not the misunderstanding of everyone else who’s observing?”  You see, that isn’t what prevails in the holy instant.  But what will it take for you to engage in or indulge in the holy instant right on the spot there? 

See, this is where it counts, this is where it matters, this is where you get off the wheel of history and you just don’t repeat the old habits-habits you may have made up for yourself or habits which you may have copied from your parents or your friends or your relatives.  You see? 

I am as incapable of receiving sacrifice as God is, and every sacrifice you ask of yourself you ask of me.  

Oh yeah, you know,you do penance by sacrificing.  Or you are sure that because you’re so awful-you’re such a bad orphan-that you need to engage in some obediences which constitute giving up something for a period of time.   

But you know what?  When you engage in sacrifice, especially for pious reasons, for spiritual reasons, you are withholding your Self, you are unwilling to stand in receipt of the Father’s Love . . . “Behold it is the Father’s good pleasure to give you the Kingdom,” not withhold it from you.  And it’s not the Father’s good pleasure for you to say, “I will not receive it because I have been a bad boy and I’m going to engage in sacrifice for awhile and not receive the Gift.”  And then you come to me and you pray to me or you say you want to enter into the holy instant, but you enter into the holy instant as this poor orphan who is dutifully sacrificing in one way or another.   

So you’re not giving your whole Self to me, you’re not bringing yourself fully into the relationship with me, and obviously you cannot be bringing all of yourself as you truly Are into any of the relationships you’re in with your fellowman. 

I am as incapable of receiving sacrifice as God is, . .  

. . . so don’t waste your time indulging in it . . .

. . . and every sacrifice you ask of yourself you ask of me. 

But [chuckling] I’m not going to agree and I’m not going to join you.

 Learn NOW that sacrifice of any kind is nothing but a limitation imposed on giving. And by this limitation you have limited acceptance of the gift I offer YOU.

The gift I offer you is the acknowledgement-the full true acknowledgement-of what you divinely Are, of what you truly Are.  And I know It with God’s Mind.  And I want you to know It about your Self with God’s Mind.  Because in giving you the Kingdom, God has not withheld His Mind from you and His perspective is your Birthright to be experiencing.  That’s the gift I offer you.  That’s the gift you need to offer back to me.

 It’s like saying, “Hey, Brother.”  And you say, “Hey, Brother.” And we acknowledge each other knowing who we Are and Who the other Is,  you see?

If this doesn’t happen in your exchanges with your brotherwho you can see, or your sister or your class mate or your work buddy, you know, if you don’t do this with them, if you can’t do this with them, you’re missing out and you’re disallowing for a different kind of experience-a healed experience, a miraculous experience-one in which things reconfigure in a manner that you could only describe as glorifying God . . . glorifying good. 

And yet these things are happening . . . these things are happening.  These things happened last week . . . the week before . . . they will happen next week, because some of you will take the opportunity-usually out of a severe feeling of incapacity in the face of great need-to enter into the holy instant and join with the Father and ask for help, and give up control.   

But these experiences need to be more frequent, so that they can begin to register with you as being more normal than what you’ve been experiencing, so that you, with less resistance, embrace them.  You see? 

We who are one CANNOT give separately.

How can that which is one give separately?  You and I are Brothers and Sisters.  We are kin.  When we truly give, we can’t give alone.  We can’t think that we’re indulging in a private act that no one else is experiencing, except perhaps the individual toward whom that act is being extended.  That isn’t the way it works.   

We who are one CANNOT give separately. When you are willing to accept OUR relationship . . . 

. . . yours and mine.  When Paul is willing to accept our relationship, his and mine as real.  And because I’m your Brother, every single one of you has this relationship with me. 

When you are willing to accept OUR relationship as real, guilt will hold NO attraction for you.  

Well, there’s a goal for you that you haven’t been engaging in . . . to accept our relationship as real . . . I mean, really, Real-as real as a relationship you think you could have with Paul because he’s here where you are and you think I am somewhere else. 

When you are willing to accept OUR relationship as real, guilt will hold NO attraction for you.  

And so I ask, what will it take to let that be a goal instead of getting even, or instead of protecting yourself or any of the other things you do?  How about having that for a goal, and what would it take to do it. 

For in our union you will accept ALL of our brothers. The gift of union is the only gift that I was born to give. Give it to me, that YOU may have it.

You see, I’m Real and I gave the gift.  And the gift was given to all Brothers, all Sisters, not just my disciples and not just those who were on your planet at that time, but to all of the Brotherhood.

The gift of union is the only gift that I was born to give. Give it to me, that YOU may have it.

Give to me your recognition that I am Real and that I am your Brother.  And then you’ll know who you Are-not an orphan-A holy Son of God, a holy Daughter of God.

Give it to me, that YOU may have it.

Acknowledge that I’m Real and I’m your Brother, and then you’ll know you’re my Brother and you’ll know who you Are and you will have It.

The time of Christ is the time appointed for the gift of freedom, offered to everyone.

[Repeats] . . . offered to everyone.

Why, what, today, tonight, just now?  No, it was the gift that was given two thousand years ago.  It was the meaning of what happened.  And it has forever since been the meaning.

The time of Christ is the time appointed for the gift of freedom, offered to everyone.  

Now, the time of Christ is also the holy instant.  So the holy instant . . .   

. . . is the time appointed for the gift of freedom, offered to everyone.  

It is the point in which, where God’s laws prevail, you experience your freedom and you behave as though you’re free and are a new presence in the world.  And therefore, the gift of freedom is being made, is being given in the world like it hasn’t been before.  You see?  And the Christ is present.  And so the season-the meaning of the season-is embodied, manifest. 

And by YOUR acceptance of it, you have OFFERED it to everyone.

You know what?

It IS in your power to make this season holy, for it is in your power to make the time of Christ be NOW.

Not off in the future, you see.  That’s the way to “celebrate the Season,” by making the time of Christ be NOW.  And by making the time of Christ be now by joining with me, letting me, through the Holy Spirit, reveal your right Mind to you and your true Identity to you, so that you become in expression the Christ that you Are, rather than a pretence of an orphan that you aren’t.  You see?

Now, I’ve been asking, “What will it take?”  And you may have been thinking about this as I’ve been speaking.  And you might have come to the conclusion that it’s going to take a catastrophe, or that it’s going to take some world shaking event, or it’s going to take something significant enough to grab your attention-to, in so many words, force you to do it. 

Well, it’s simpler than that.  The answer is, that what it’s going to take for you to engage in the holy instant is Love. 

You might say, “Wow, where is that going to come from?”  And it’s a good question.  It’s a good question for you to be asking with all seriousness, with all intent to have the answer.  And it’s an answer, for lack of better words, that you’re going to have to come up with.  It’s not an answer I’m going to give you.  And it’s not an answer that anyone else is going to give you. 

Where is the willingness to Love going to come from, out of the blue, while you’re in the checkout stand at the grocery store, or when somebody else has gotten upset with you, or you feel justified with being upset with someone else?  It’s going to come from somewhere.  And it just might have something to do with, um-m . . . dare I say, there being an unreasonable willingness to Love right then, right there.  I’m not going to say anything more than that. 

The question . . . the significant question is, “What’s it going to take for you to engage in the holy instant?”  And the answer is, “What it’s going to take is Love.” 

And you know what?  I’m going to be blatantly clear with you, each one of you has it in you.  I know that from time to time you’ve taken my counsel and you’ve said, “I wish to see the evidence of Love,” and you’ve also said, “I wish to be the evidence of Love.”  What’s it going to take for you to go ahead and be the evidence of Love? 

And please keep in mind, there’s only going to be one answer.  And the answer is going to be the way to do it.  It’s not going to be, “Well, you don’t really have the capacity to do it.”  The answer won’t be, “Well, you’re going to have to refine your soul for a few more lifetimes before you can do it.”  No.  The answer won’t be the ways in which it can’t happen.  It’s already in you.  And the answer will be how it can . . . the answer will be what spontaneously slips into the doing of it.

Now, letting this question be foremost in your mind and abiding with it with attentiveness to the answer is a goal that you haven’t ordinarily engaged in, in your life.  It’s a different kind of goal.  And it is the different kind of goal that is more typical of what you divinely Are.  And it’s a goal for you to be willing to embrace with gratitude and commitment.  And it’s a question to be asked in the grocery line.  And it’s a question to be asked in every single encounter you have with your Brother.

Now the question isn’t, “What will it take,” because now you know that it’ll take Love.  The question is, “Where will the Love come from?  What will cause It to slip into expression so that the embodiment of the Christ happens in the grocery store?   Christmas happens while you’re standing in front of the clerk as she tallies up your groceries, whether it’s June or December. 

Don’t think too much about this.  When you’re in the grocery store line and something happens, ask, “Where’s the Love going to come from that will allow me to enter into the holy instant right now?”  Ask the question as though you expect an answer right there in that grocery line-not after you’ve loaded your groceries in the car and gotten half way home-because I’m there and the Holy Spirit is there and the Will of God is there for you to find that Love and let it out-embody It!

We will end there tonight.  And although I am always with you and have been, and the Holy Spirit, of course, is inseparable from you and the Father is inseparable from you, I want you to know that during this coming week, we are specifically engaged in consciously being with you in support of the holy instants that await you at any given moment.  You have Great support . . . you have Great support.


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Scribing by Sun~Rose

Attainment of the Real World

Jesus Expanding on
“Attainment of the Real World”
Given In His Course In Miracles
original edition ~
CH 12 Sec VII 58

as Received and Transcribed by Sun~Rose*
[as it appeared in the October 2010 Newsletter]


TRANSCRIBER’S NOTE: The text is taken from the JCIM edition <now referred to as the original edition

>of A Course In Miracles. 


The Course is a Miracle in itself, and I have so much appreciation for Helen Schucman’s ability to hear and express His Voice with such supreme beauty.

I have not changed the Course text at all, except as it is interspersed with Jesus’ current Guidance on it.

The Course text is in bold face and BLUE.  The Guidance is in normal type.

In His Guidance, He has asked Me to capitalize the pronouns You and We as an acknowledgement of the Divinity of All of Us, an acknowledgement of Equality, an expression of His Love and respect for You.


When You see the word ‘YOU’  capitalized in the Guidance, know that He is not just speaking to YOU, He is honoring YOU.  

Chapter 12

VII. The Attainment of the Real World

Sit quietly – not just a stillness of the mouth, but of the mind.  The quietness of mind You would have if You were walking by a precipice in total dark, and needed Me to Guide each step.  That – that – is the quietness I want, the attentiveness, as if your life depended on it, and, indeed, it does.  For what You are experiencing now is far from Life Itself – a deadened, flat perception of Something Infinite.

Like feeling your way along the precipice, not with your feet, but with the Wholeness of our Joining, knowing I can See and Feel, and now can You – and so we look upon the world you see, and tell yourself,
“The real world is not like this. It has no buildings, and there are no streets where people walk alone and separate.
As I have said before, Oneness is the universal law.  Nothing is ever left out, a concept that does not exist as Heaven.  Every One and every Thing is precious to Us All.

Because there is no separation, there are no buildings as You know them, nor streets nor gardens as You know them, yet Heaven is not empty!  The Ideas behind the buildings – the Gatherings of Love – these exist.  And streets?  There are Ways – a Holiness of Movement – Infinite Ways.  And Gardens: the Experience of Flowers, Plant Life in Infinite Dances and Songs of Harmony, Experiences that even as Heaven are exquisite, joyous.

There are no stores where people buy an endless list of things they do not need. Because there is no need, there are no stores.  There are designs … of Ideas, again as Dance and Song (Movement and Music) and Mathematics; Beauty coming together in Infinite Experience – a Kaleidoscope of joyous Life.

As Reality, You always have exactly what You need.  This is better said: You always have exactly what is right, and it is given as God’s Gift to You.  This is what the Holy Instant is: sequential and exquisite moments of the Oneness that You share as God is Be-ing You and You and You.  There are not words to give the expression of this Life of seamless Holy Instants, as they flow from Joy and Peace that You have barely tasted yet.  And taste it soon You will, as You allow My Love to Be You, and your experience as Light begins.

The new Jerusalem of which the Bible speaks is the Place of Only Love.  It is not lit with artificial light, and night comes not upon it. There is no day that brightens and grows dim. There is no loss. Nothing is there but shines, and shines forever.” It isn’t lit because All is Light!  You are Light Itself.  And how beautiful You are.

The world YOU see must be DENIED, – not that there is no place for You to be; far from it!  Instead of the world with all its limits, the Universe is yours, with all of Its Infinity of God’s Ideas for You to see, and smell, and hear, and taste and feel.  It is a Universe of rejoicing for everything in It is Love and loving You.  And this is why You must deny what seems to play out before your eyes – for sight of it is costing you a different kind of vision. 

And would You not be happy to see with Me as I do?  To share My Peace and Joy with every view of Reality, another name for Heaven?  We long for You to join the Brotherhood again, for It is lonesome without You.  To do this is not hard.  Again I only ask a little willingness to ask for My True Vision instead of the world You think You see.

YOU CANNOT SEE BOTH WORLDS, for each of them involves a different kind of seeing and depends on what you cherish.  And what do You hold dear?  Is it the world You made with all its pain and loss, or will You let it be that little memory that You feel when We are joined, of what it’s like to feel My Love for You and how secure It is.

The sight of one is possible BECAUSE you have denied the other. When You chose the strange and limited view that We’ve called the world, the Heaven that You’d always known slipped quietly out of sight, hidden by the travesty of life You’ve come to know since then.

And yet its claim to any Reality or Truth is false, for only one is Real. Both are not true, – and only Heaven is the Real – yet either one will seem as real to you as the amount to which you hold it dear.

For eons now the world has been your choice, and it seems to have You tightly in its grip, spinning endlessly between birth and death, and birth and death again, lifetime after lifetime.  What a foolish use of Life Eternal.

And yet their power is NOT the same because their real attraction to you is unequal. What does that mean?  The world You see, what is it but your own invention overlaid upon the joy that Heaven is.  It has no power over You but that with which You do endow it.  It is a useless thing, being non-existent.  And yet You live as if it were reality itself.
You do not really want the world you see, for it has disappointed you since time began.  And how did time ‘begin?  Time is not real, but rather a default state of the ignorance of Mind being All and your projections nothing. This is the fact despite their screaming for reality.

The homes you built have never sheltered you. And do You think there is need for shelter in Reality?  Then think again and try – yes try! – to imagine what could ever harm the Spirit of God that’s known as You?  For That is what You truly are.

The roads you made have led you nowhere, for there is nowhere to go for now here is always where You are, as infinite variety. – and no city that you built has withstood the crumbling assault of time. For You have forgotten that your creations are always only Spirit.  Nothing you made but has the mark of death upon it. Yet all Real Things teach only Life Eternal.

Hold it not dear, for it is old and tired, – and dear it certainly isn’t – and ready to return to dust even as you made it.  A great distinction between this world and Heaven is that: in the world things are constructed while as Heaven they just are; having … no, Be-ing Complete from God.

This aching world has not the power to touch the living world at all.  It waits in joyous, patient expectation for your glad return.  Your robe, and ring and sandals are resting by the open door.  You could not give it that, – and yet the time is drawing nearer every instant – and so although you – did, and do no longer – turn in sadness from it, – because You know you cannot find in IT the road that leads away from it into another world, the one You made, or so You think. And yet it is nothing new, but just a limited distortion of a Place so perfect and so beautiful that fills Eternity, and You have only buried – not forgotten – the Knowledge of It.
And so, although the memory is deeply hidden: Yet the real world has the power to touch you even here BECAUSE YOU LOVE IT. Yes!!  You felt the power and the Truth behind those words.  You have NOT FORGOTTEN WHAT True Love is,  And what you call with love WILL come to You because It is already here.  What You thought You left is always with You.  It is You who is ignoring It and not the other way around!  And isn’t this good news.

Love always answers, because It abides as You, and therefore, Its very Be-ing, is being unable to deny a call for help, or not to hear the cries of pain that rise to it from every part of this strange world you made but do not want, It stands ever ready to give You all the aid You need. The only effort – and it is really effortless once You realize the pain it is – you need make to give this world away in glad exchange for what you did not make is willingness to learn THE ONE YOU MADE IS FALSE. For never could You change Reality.  It is as Permanent as God, unchanging Good; for God It is, Be-ing All Creation.
You HAVE been wrong about the world because you have misjudged YOURSELF. The moment that You chose to see a different way, so different became Your world, for your world is only What You see or what You think You see.  And that is literally: what You think, … You see?

And once You’d thought to see a different way, well: From such a twisted reference point what COULD you see but God’s Creation twisted beyond recognition?

All vision starts WITH THE PERCEIVER, who judges what is true and what is false. And what is judgment but an exercise of thinking on your own, the very antipode of Knowing, your original Consciousness.   Having shrunken your vision and ‘invented’ a place so unlike Heaven that it should have been laughable to You, rather than embraceable.  And embrace it You have till your memory of Home and Joy is completely gone, there remaining only the sense that You should be happy, if only You remembered how.

And what he judges false HE DOES NOT SEE. All that remains to You is the strange exercise of ‘thinking’, which is what your Knowing shrunk to.  And with it You endlessly attempt to justify yourself in every situation.

You who would judge reality CANNOT see it, – as It is hidden by your misperceptions – for whenever judgment enters reality has slipped away.  And why?  Because Reality is Love, and Love sees All through the Vision of Perfection.  Yes, You felt a faint reminder of what it means to be loved like that, and You are remembering your first experience of that Love as You, and how You saw the great gulf between the love that serves the world and the Love of Heaven, the only Reality.

The relentless judgment of the ego, with its darkened sense, hides Reality from view, and not remembering what You’ve lost, You search frantically for some one or some thing – or many ones and many things to fill an emptiness without measure, when all it takes to feel fulfilled and safe is to reach out for My hand and open up your mind to Me and let Love in.

The out of mind is out of sight – and so You do not see the glorious Self You are – because what is denied is there, but is not RECOGNIZED. Christ is still there – right where You are – although you know Him not. His Being does not depend upon your recognition. And so He waits in loving silence for You to ask for help.  He lives within you – as You – in the quiet present – which is always Now and Here. And it is quiet because You have moved all your attention to the past and to the future, totally neglecting Now.  And Now is where You really are while You dwell endlessly in the past and dream within the dream about the future.

And so that lovely, “quiet present” – also known as Now – abides, and waits for you to – to shut the door forever on the future and leave the past behind – as it never was – and enter into the Present – ever-presentworld He holds out to you in love – as His eternal Gift of You. Will You not take it Now and let His Love become You?  And your return to Home is sure and steady, filled with both His Joy and Yours.


*Sun~Rose is the scribe of the recently published book,



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Gaff ~ Thoughts of a Fisherman

GAFF meets Wally
Thoughts of a Fisherman
Lorena R. Peter, Ph.D.*
[as it appeared in the October 2010 Newsletter]


                      He walked up and started right in. “I’m minister at the church just down the road and some of my congregation tell me you’ve been preaching on this beach.”

            Gaff’s eyes flew wide and his mouth dropped open. He stuck his hand out, offering to shake. “Name’s Gaff.” He looked at the fishing gear all around him and didn’t think he needed to explain why he was here.

            The man looked at Gaff’s hand as though it were a snake coiled to attack. “I’m Wally Redmon, Reverend Walter Redmon. My church is two blocks down.” His chin jerked in that direction. He stood there looking as though expecting Gaff to engage in fisticuffs.

            Gaff watched his visitor wondering where he’d go from here, and why.

            Hands on hips, anger shooting out all around him. Wally rocked on his feet, uncomfortable in the silence. “I’m here to tell you to cease and desist. You are not a trained minister, so stop preaching to my people.”

            Gaff looked all around to see if Wally might be addressing these comments to someone else. No one there. “Me?” Feeling at a disadvantage sitting, Gaff stood. Then an idea. “What exactly am I doing that offends you?”

            Feet in a strong stance, planted wide and ready for a fight. “You’re preaching the Word and telling people how to live their lives without the proper training.” Once started the waves kept right on breaking around him. “Have you read the Bible? Have you gone to Seminary to learn about the Bible? I’ve had good teachers train me in what the Good Book means, especially the Gospels. How much have you studied the history of the church or how to tell people how to save their souls? I’m trained to teach people about Jesus’s teachings.”

            Gaff watched as Wally finished his rant and the energy drained out of him like water leaving a tidepool. He shook his head. “Help me understand your concerns.”

            Wally started to say something, but Gaff held his hand up, palm out. “My turn.” He looked to Mother Water for help with this. His voice was calm and low. “I am a fisherman, sitting on the beach casting lines out into the ocean. People come to visit me. “ He glanced at the flag flapping in the wind. “Many come because of the flag… the skull and crossed leg bones. Some leave a part of their burden with me by talking about the troubles in their lives.”

            He looked at Wally through squinted eyes. “Am I right so far?”

            Wally nodded, but was stopped from talking by Gaff’s outstretched hand.

            Gaff closed his eyes to see. “I talk about the birds and fish and clouds, things of nature, to give people an idea of how things fit together. Sometimes when they hear my stories, they see how all the creatures on the planet are part of the same whole. Sometimes they see their own lives differently and figure out how to be happier… Is this what you understand?” Gaff looked at his visitor.

            Wally nodded. His nod was answered by Gaff’s.

            The old fisherman looked at the sand as he dug a toe into it. “A lot of times that means to understand and love people who used to make them mad. What I don’t see is what’s wrong with that.”

            Wally hesitated a tick before he realized he could answer. “You quote the Bible, a book you haven’t studied.”

            Gaff nodded, patient. “You are right, I haven’t read the Bible all the way through. I guess it isn’t enough that I’ve gone to church all these many years listening to the readings and the sermons explaining them. I guess it isn’t enough that I’ve practiced living the two Commandments that Jesus gave us in the New Testament.” He squinted at the tip of his rod, no sign of a catch.

            The old fisherman sighed a sad one. “I don’t much quote the Bible or any other book for that matter even though I’ve read plenty. What I tell people comes from the love in my heart, not from some words I’ve memorized… and no piece of paper can certify that love.”

            Wally sputtered, but didn’t say a word.

            Again, Gaff looked into his visitor’s eyes. “I didn’t need a piece of paper to teach my wonderful children nor to love my Julia. So I don’t understand why I need some piece of paper to show people how to allow more happiness into their lives. I love the people who sit on my cooler… Well, most of them… I’m filled with incredible joy when I see them walk back down the beach with a hitch in their step. I don’t tell them what to do or how to live their lives. They might see themselves in my stories and learn more about life. Do I need a paper for that?”

            Wally blurted out his words. “Only a pagan talks about Mother Water like it was a human… corrupting my people. You’re barbarian.” His hands jammed into his hips again, full of fury, hard enough to make a bruise.

            Gaff shook his head. “No, Mother Water isn’t a person, but God can speak to us through anything. This is His world and He uses all of it to teach us. A big part of what’s troubling our planet is that we don’t love her enough. So does it offend you if I love the planet and take care of her? Is that why I need a paper and some letters behind my name? Those letters’ll give me the right to encourage others to take care of the planet so we still have a home?” He looked at Mother Water and the creatures around her.

            Wally sputtered. No words came from him.

            Gaff grinned and looked into the minister’s face, challenging. “Let’s have a contest, you and me. Let’s see who can love our people the best and can help them to grow strongest. Let’s see who can have the happiest lives, filled with joy. Let’s see who can allow our wives and children to be the healthiest and happiest, not spoiled, but knowing they’re really loved. Let’s see who can live a life most like the one that Jesus modeled for us.”

            Wally looked puzzled for a moment, but seeing no negative, nodded his agreement. The corners of his mouth threatened to turn up in a smile.

            Gaff checked the tip of his rod. Did he have one on the line? It was wiggling. He turned eyes back to the minister. “You know, the only two emotions are love and fear. Fear can be called by so many other names, so many… Love can, too, I guess. No matter what nametag it’s wearing, though, you can still recognize it.” He shook his head. “If what you’re seeing or feeling isn’t love, it must be fear. Whenever you feel fear, it’s time to find out what caused it and boot it out of your life. A life filled with love is a magnificent thing—everyone should have one! You, too.”


* Lorena Peter, Ph.D., writes entertaining mysteries, romances and wisdom books. All have strong spiritual underpinnings and paranormal elements. She blends a medical intuition and healing practice (and travel) with her writing. For more information go to There you will see photographs of locations discussed in Gaff as well as a chapter for your perusal. You may contact her on Facebook. For her understanding of the Course, she thanks Carmen Cameron and the class in Louisville, KY.

Q and A with Carmen

Good Questions
Questions & Answers

By the late Carmen Cameron*
[as it appeared in the October 2010 Newsletter]
This month’s article isn’t so much an answer to a question as a response to a call for help. But it is such a common – and timely – call for help that it feels like it could be helpful to others who might be reading this, if not for themselves then for someone they know and care about. 

 Just by way of explanation, the “God box” that she refers to at the outset is a beautiful box that we use in our ACIM study group as a visual aid to the injunction of giving everything that hurts us to the Holy Spirit; we pass the box around the circle and each participant “sees” their problem going into the box as a
GIFT OF WILLINGNESS into Spirit’s Hands and then we collectively pray for each other to just let their problem GO.

Question: Please put my husband and me in the “God box”….it’s about his job….nail the lid shut and remind me to ask the Holy Spirit to see this another way and show me what to do.

          Answer:  You’re already doing the first thing you need to do, dear. You are calling on Spirit and placing IT at the center of this situation. Remember that EVERYTHING given to the Holy Spirit is turned to good. There simply are NO exceptions!

            Know now that you are SAFE, that there is NOTHING to fear. Because simply to reject the sense of DANGER that is ALWAYS of the ego IS to ask for your miracle!

            And consciously CHOOSE to put yourself under the complete protection of the Laws of God – which GUARANTEE that there is NO loss in this (or in anything else, for that matter) – whenever you notice yourself going into fear again.  (Lesson 76, “I am under no laws but God’s” is particularly helpful here as is its partner lesson, “I am entitled to miracles,” which immediately follows it – not by accident, by the way.)

            Fear, itself, is magnetic (just like love) and so it DRAWS that which is feared. Acknowledge the fear each time it arises and then GIVE IT AWAY to the Holy Spirit, expecting His answer to show you WHY your fear is utterly groundless.  And then PROVING to you that it is in precisely the perfect form that will SHOW you beyond the shadow of a doubt that the reason you feared IS false.

            We are NOT bound by the world’s economy. But we must first be willing to be SHOWN that fact by merely claiming the completion and abundance that is our rightful inheritance as a part of God’s perfect Sonship.  The Course promises us that we are SAFE – even HERE, where chaos reigns. “Trials are but lessons.”  NOW is a perfect opportunity to LEARN that your trust in the Course has NOT been misplaced.

            AND remember that we are told that we need not trust the Holy Spirit any farther than what He will SHOW us He can do for us – things that are so amazing that we will KNOW for a FACT we couldn’t do it for ourselves!  (T-25.VIII.9.3)

            Reject fear by claiming your safety.  I have personally seen the most unimaginable results from this one simple practice, love, and it works EVERY single time! Just claim that promise, sweet soul, and hold onto it with all your might.

And THEN, with Spirit’s guidance, find some place in your life that is already so abundant that you can FEARLESSLY give it away to others who are in need of it.

            THEN the Holy Spirit will offer you a miracle for every one you let Him do THROUGH you.  (T-14.XI.10.10)  So just remember:

            “You cannot perform a miracle for YOURSELF because miracles are a way of GIVING acceptance AND receiving it. In time the giving comes first, though they are simultaneous in eternity, where they cannot BE separated. When you have learned that they ARE the same, the need for time is over.”   T-9.VI.6.3-5

            ACCEPT your REALITY of COMPLETE and UNBROKEN abundance BY setting the process of receiving your miracle HERE in motion BY GIVING A MIRACLE to one who Spirit knows CAN accept it. And then EXPECT a miracle (and not a disaster) in return!

Holding you both in my heart and in the Light! And KNOWING that you’ll be MORE than fine – in ALL ways!



* Carmen Cameron, who is a founding member of Course in Miracles Society, has been teaching classes in A Course in Miracles since 1994.  She was a presenter at the 2009 Miracles Conference in San Francisco and presented again at the 2011 Conference. Carmen’s website is:

Poems by J.Michaels

Children on the Hill

By J. Michaels*
[as it appeared in the October 2010 Newsletter]

One day in eternal blissSome children played at will

Reveling in their innocence

Knowing all was well

They played atop grassy knoll

It was lush and emerald green

They frolicked in the sunshine

Knowing all to be seen
Wise beyond recognition
Holy through and through
Innocence in children form



Playing two by two
An errant thought did enter
Mind so pure and fair
One they forgot to laugh at



And led them away from there
A wish to leave the fold
A desire to be one of all
Leaving the tender oneness



Of all in one recalled
So leave, they did
These now orphaned souls
Departing from oneness once known



To dream of hell’s darkly hole
In darkness they sought their way
Hoping to find light again
And illuminate a place to pray

Regret and guilt guide them now

As they seek a sacrificial way

Paying, at any cost

For transgressions of mind betrayed

Yet they know not what they do

For they are lost and blown away
At last, from afar
A lantern light is seen
Labeled love, they were told



A hope for souls redeemed
They reached the light at last
First a few, then many more
Guided by God’s Holy Spirit



They arrived where they were before
Instant rejoicing came upon them
Now knowing the whys and wherefores
Back in the greener pastures



Playing in innocence once more



                   Copyright 2010 J. Michaels

J. Michaels
Writer, Storyteller & Poet
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